Ketika hatimu terlalu berharap kepada seseorang, maka Allah timpakan ke atas kamu pedihnya sebuah pengharapan.
Supaya kamu mengetahui bahwa Allah sangat mencemburui hati yang berharap selain Dia. Maka Allah menghalangi kamu daripada perkara tersebut. Agar kamu kembali berharap hanya kepadaNya.
(Imam Syafi’i)


That we could make forever after all,
Finding the gold in our darkest moments,
Watching the roads turning into white roses,
And we don’t ever have to leave these walls,
I’ll be the boy with the silver lining,
You’ll be the girl with the cinderblock garden

Cinderblock Garden – All Time Low

Book Review : By My Side – Alice Peterson


One step can change everything…

Cass Brooks wishes she could turn back time. She’d go back to that morning and retrace her steps. Her boyfriend, Sean, would still be with her. Her mother wouldn’t be nagging her to plan a new future when all she wants is her old life back.

But when Ticket, the most loyal golden Labrador, bursts into Cass’s life, she dares to dream that she can be happy again, that maybe she has a future after all?

Charlie Bell is single. Why can’t he commit? Following his latest break up, he finds himself sitting next to a young woman called Cass on a flight to Colorado.

She is unlike any woman he’s met before…

Would you please take a look at the cover first? What do you think? Well, to be totally honest, the cover didn’t draw me in. It’s just like some chick-lit books, which I usually couldn’t even finish. But the 4.4/5 stars got my attention and I have never read any of Alice Peterson’s book, so I decided to give it a go. The next thing I knew, I shed my ugly tears over this book.

Screenshot_2014-12-24-22-23-22The former life of an amazingly beautiful girl, Cassandra Brooks was beyond perfect. she was studying to be a doctor, had a perfect loving family, was in love, and her life was heading exactly at the direction she’d always hoped it would. But on one morning, she was distracted and hungover, she stepped into the path of a truck. The next thing she knew, she woke up with a cord spinal injury. And then there’s this douchebag she dated for years named Sean, leaving a letter on her hospital desk. He bailed just like that. Cass had so much to take in. She barely existed. She thought her life was over: unable to walk, lost her boyfriend, lost her job and her life as she knew it. All her friends and family worried about how they could help her rebuild her future but Cass felt that there was nothing anyone could do. But then fate intervened again. Cass met Ticket, a loyal golden Labrador who refused to leave her side. And on a flight to Colorado, she sat next to Charlie, who led her believe that he could show her a life full of possibilities, if only she would let him. Cass wanted her old life back. Charlie knew this couldn’t be. Yet a future beckoned all the same.

This book actually blew me away. Alice Peterson really managed to engage the Screenshot_2014-12-24-22-24-40reader in the storyline. It was so detailed and realistic that it could almost have been someone’s diary I was reading. The author has quite clearly spent a lot of time doing her research for this book, nothing is briefly skimmed over everything is delivered in great details.

I love all the characters. It feels like they’re all real. I love Charlie, he wasn’t just some hero character who loved a disabled heroine like they were perfect, because Cass wasn’t. He couldn’t deny that it would be easier if he could love a normal girl. But the problem was, he couldn’t even feel anything for the girls other than Cass. In the other side Cass felt so inadequate, she thought why would Charlie choose her over any normal girl. It’s not logical. But that’s love. You can’t help whom you’re in love with.

Screenshot_2014-12-24-22-25-22Disabilities are usually seen as a taboo subject in fiction, usually if there is a character with a disability they are only briefly mentioned in books where as this book is unique in the fact that the whole book is based around Cass and her new friends with disabilities.

The book has the right mix of compassion, humor and seriousness. It was a great, positive book to read. I couldn’t put it down.This was my first Alice Peterson book, but it certainly won’t be the last I would read of hers. 5 stars for this book.

When Two Hearts, at Different Intervals in Life, Find Each Other

more than her“For every reaction there is an equal and opposite reaction”

For every choice you made there are rewards, or there are consequences. It was my choice to walk away the first time. And my choice to chase her the second. But sometimes you don’t get a choice. And all you get are the consequences.

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage”

Unless that someone is Logan Matthews. Because loving him didn’t give me strength to walk away. It didn’t give me the courage to fight for him. And when it was over, all it gave me was a broken heart.

MTHIM collage            My midterm test was over and right now I’m in the mood for something other than college stuff. Well, last month I stumbled upon a book titled “More Than Her”. I was so not expecting such a great story since the synopsis itself wasn’t quite compelling. But when I finished reading it, I was like “OMG, where the hell have you been all this time Jay McLean!!” and that, for the first time, made me wholeheartedly read these books twice. These books weren’t just words on pages. The story in it was built up gradually, not threw sort of facts all at once. That made me get to know the characters and led me to the reason for the heartache, the angst, and all of the emotions worked so well on me.

More Than Her is the story of Logan and Amanda. The first half of the book jumps back and forth between present and the summer in the past when they met, and what has happened between them. That particular part itself could stir my emotions up and down. Never in the last few years Amanda thought about a guy other than her boyfriend, Tyson, not until she laid her eyes on Logan. Then she was at the state of denial that it was just some stupid physical attraction because Logan was just that smoking hot. But it only needed a date to prove her wrong. She broke up with Tyson for the sake of Logan. However for some reasons, Logan never called her after their date. She put her best endeavor to forget him, forget how that one stupid date affected her. She just couldn’t. She felt so unworthy that she somehow messed up with a jerk who later put her into a bigger problem. After a year she was almost totally healed. But then Logan showed up and all the emotions she’d worked to hide came rushing back to the surface. Well that’s the first half, while the second half focuses more on their relationship and the obstacles that they faced in overcoming their pasts. The second half of this book was worthy with a mix of angst, thrill and drama. It was so good in fact that I can overlook the beginning of the book.

More Than Him picks up where More Than Her left off. The story where we’ll find Amanda still picking up the pieces of her life after a year of Logan’s disappearence. She was trying so hard to make up her own normal life without him. Getting back on her feet wasn’t easy and most of all she just didn’t understand why he left. Amanda couldn’t seem to understand why someone you loved could just walk away from everything you once shared. She was also hurting because she was left with constant reminders of him everywhere and couldn’t seem to shake off the nightmares from that awful night. Logan was also in emotional wreck from that tragic night. During his time away he came to realize that he must face the past in order to move forward. There was one thing for sure though, Amanda has always been on his mind. In this book I understand why Logan felt so unworthy of Amanda’s love. Then a year later he came back and accidentally saw her. He knew he screwed up with Amanda, but he was more than ready to do anything to make it up to her. In the other side, Amanda was determined to fight Logan but she couldn’t truly deny her love for him. In this book, I was a little bit disappointed for losing that perfect cocky asshole. Logan showed his increasing maturity, I miss his old Logan-ness haha.

1414169127686Screenshot_2014-10-12-09-42-44 Eleventy-Three stars for this series haha. These two books was the perfect wrap to Logan and Amanda’s story. Even when life started turning around, no one ever was magically cured, and that’s what made it so real. There was no quick fix, it was finding happiness in spite of having painful pasts. These characters were whole, just feel like real people. About the characters, throughout the series, you see so many sides of Logan. He’s cocky, funny, he can be an asshole, but he’s also sweet and damaged from a life he didn’t deserve, but at the same time, it made him better because he didn’t take anything he’s given for granted. So is Amanda, they just kind of perfect for each other. And Logan is now officially my number one book boyfriend ha ha. Well, I’m done talking about this. You just have to read to see what you think.


“You won’t fall madly out-of-your-brains in love? Let your world as you know it be blown to bits because you fall heart-crushingly head-over-heels for someone?”    -Finn

Jessica Park – Flat Out Matt